The first-ever “Bachelorette” is adapting to a new way of life after suffering a significant seizure.
Trista Sutter was vacationing with her family in Croatia earlier this month when she seized violently and landed on top of her eight-year-old daughter, Blakesley. “All I remember was feeling very dizzy and nauseous, and the next thing I knew, I was in this dream. The only way I can describe it is, it was like a white euphoria,” Sutter told “Good Morning America.”
The original 2003 “Bachelorette” winner was also with her husband — and original suitor — Ryan Sutter and their son, Maxwell, 9. “I heard Blakesley screaming, ‘Mommy, Mommy,'” Ryan recalled. “Trista had fallen onto Blakesley in a sort of convulsive state.”
“I was checking her pulse,” the trained EMT continued. “She was shaking and stiff. Her eyes were wide open… rolled back in her head, looking sort of up. She wasn’t breathing. She was turning sort of blue.”
She was rushed to the hospital and cared for, but the mom’s biggest concern is her daughter: “She was traumatized, I think she probably still is a bit. She knows that something is wrong.”
Sutter has been warned not to drive until she has met with a neurologist back in the United States, but she is already feeling a shift in her lifestyle. “It’s changing my life, still is, to this day,” she said. “I mean, I got up this morning and I thought, ‘I need to go to the grocery store,’ and then I’m, like, ‘Oh I can’t drive.’
“Because God forbid, I have another seizure or event in the car. And I could kill someone, I could kill myself. I could kill my kids,” she said. “I have to have a new perspective in order to keep me and my family and everyone around me safe.”
Sutter wrote a lengthy message on Instagram with a photo from her hospital bed the day after the seizure: “In this type of situation, you usually ask, ‘Why me?’ But then I thought right immediately after, ‘But why not me? I’m human. This can happen to me… this could happen to anybody.'”
This was me yesterday. …two hours after I had a seizure. …two hours after I fell on my daughter's chest & she watched, along with her brother & grandparents, in confusion & horror as her mommy stared blankly off into the distance & started turning blue. …two hours after we were supposed to have an adventure. An adventure to one of the most beautiful National Parks in Europe. Instead, I ended up in a euphoric white dream that the voices of my husband and daughter pulled me from and I ended up in a Croatian hospital being poked and prodded and wondering "why me?" But today, I had to ask, "why not me"? I'm human. I have an expiration date. I've always envisioned that date being sometime after my kids have graduated college, met the loves of their lives and created families of their own, but I was reminded yesterday that it could come anytime, in any country, whether I'm surrounded by strangers or people I love, or neither, or both. I've never been perfect and I never will be, but from here on out, I vow to try my best to live this life to the fullest. To embrace gratitude and the lessons I wrote about over 3 years ago with a newly acquired perspective. To stress less. To love more. To listen. Be kind. Spread joy. To be a better version of myself as a wife, mother, sister, cousin, niece, aunt, neighbor, daughter, and friend. Thank you to those back in the states, whom I hold dear. You know who you are. Thank you to those I've never met who lift me up and have my back. Thank you to those from my #bachelornation family who've shown this OG kindness & respect when I know I'm old news. Thank you to the kind tourists & Croatians who held my hand, wiped my tears, and hugged my kids. You will forever be remembered. And lastly, thank you to my family, especially @ryansutter. Without you, I don't know that I would be here today. You are my everything and I love you forevermore. If you've gotten this far, know that I don't share these words for your pity, but to inspire you to take them and be thankful for your life and blessings. Tell the people you love how you feel and live with grateful enthusiasm. I plan to.