Shia LaBeouf has made more headlines for his numerous arrests and out-of-control behaviour than for his film roles in recent years, and that’s something the 31-year-old actor wants to change.
Looking back on his 2017 arrest after a drunken altercation and profanity-laced tirade at an eatery in Savannah, Georgia, LaBeouf opens up in a new interview with Esquire, admitting he now finds the whole thing to be deeply embarrassing.
“What went on in Georgia was mortifying,” he tells the magazine, describing his behaviour as a combination of “white privilege and desperation and disaster.”
He adds: “I f**ked up.”
He then contrasts his public displays of rage to the temper-tantrum meltdowns of tennis great John McEnroe, whom he portrayed in the 2017 film “Borg vs. McEnroe”.
“McEnroe was a master at his rage. I’m a buffoon,” he confesses. “My public outbursts are failures. They’re not strategic. They’re a struggling motherf**ker showing his ass in front of the world.”
However, LaBeouf says the only way he can improve himself is to confront his own behaviour and try to learn from it.
“I’ve got to look at my failures in the face for a while,” he tells Esquire. “I need to take ownership of my s**t and clean up my side of the street a bit before I can go out there and work again, so I’m trying to stay creative and learn from my mistakes.”
“I’ve been falling forward for a long time. Most of my life. The truth is, in my desperation, I lost the plot.”
You can read the entire interview in the April 2018 issue of Esquire.