Nearly a month after his split from Nikki Bella, John Cena is opening up about his heartbreak for the first time.
“It’s been incredibly reflective, which is amazing, but it is very difficult. I had my heart broken out of nowhere, or, for me, it was out of nowhere. And anyone who has experienced that knows that it comes with a series of bad feelings,” he tells “Today” show hosts Kathie Lee Gifford and Hoda Kotb.
The wrestler-turned-actor says he is still in love with fellow wrestler Bella, to whom he proposed at WrestleMania 33 in April 2017 to much fanfare. Cena was previously married from 2009 to 2012.
“For anyone out there speculating on what I am doing with my life now, I still love Nicole, I still would love to marry Nicole, I still would love to have a family with Nicole,” alluding to an “unfortunate set of circumstances” that led to the end of their relationship. Reports indicate the couple disagreed on starting a family, with Bella eager to have children while Cena allegedly did not.
Now Cena, 41, is shooting down rumours he’s enjoying the bachelor life following their split.
“There has been a lot of speculation recently about me being seen in public and everybody is thinking like, ‘Oh, John Cena is enjoying the single life.’ No, I was supposed to be married and having honeymoon over these two weeks,” says Cena, who says he’s adjusting to his life without Bella around. “It is the first time in 15 years that I have taken a vacation. I am in my house alone surrounded by these emotionally strong memories and every day from 6 to 9 I get out of the house and talk to strangers as social interaction.”
Despite calling off their engagement, Cena says he and Bella still talk.
“We do. It is just difficult because I want her to be able to chase what she is looking for and I feel as if I am there, I may be enabling the situation but those are like weird assumptions, it’s all messed up. It’s a relationship.”