Nicole “Snooki” Polizzi opened up about being adopted as she discussed family life and feeling “blessed” in her latest vlog post.
The 30-year-old took to her YouTube channel to share her story, with her admitting her adopted parents, Helen and Andrew, were still a little bit “iffy” about talking about her birth mom and dad, but she was fine with it.
Snooki began, “I don’t really talk about it just because I just feel like my family is my family,” before she added: “I never really thought, ‘What’s my birth mother like? What’s my birth family like?’ Because I’m so content with my adopted parents and my adopted life and family. But you know I thought about it once I started getting older, like, ‘What does my mom look like? What does my dad look like?’”
The reality TV star went on to say how she was adopted when she was just six-months-old and her adopted parents flew over to Santiago, Chile to pick her up.
Snooki explained, “They said right when they saw me I was like, ‘Mama, Dada.’ So it was meant to be, things just work out that way — it’s called fate.
“I was always meant to be with my adopted parents, which I don’t even, ew, I hate saying adoptive parents because they are my parents, it’s weird.”
The MTV favourite continued to say that she feels like she’s both Chilean and Italian because that’s how she was raised, with her saying in the YouTube clip that she didn’t ask her parents about her upbringing until she hit her teens.
She admitted, “I always knew, they didn’t have to tell me. They didn’t have to sit me down at 10 and be like, ‘Nicole, you’re adopted.’ I knew, we don’t look alike. I’m brown, you’re white. This doesn’t make sense but I always knew in my heart that I was adopted and I was totally fine with it.
“I would say once I was 16, 17, I started to think, ‘Why didn’t my birth parents want me? What do they look like? Do I have any brothers and sisters?’ Because I grew up an only child, I always wanted a brother or sister to grow up with. I hate being an only child, it makes me a bitter b***h that I am today. That’s why I want like 10 kids so they don’t feel that way.”
Polizzi said, “Every time I ask my parents they would get upset. I could just tell they would get upset because they didn’t want to tell me the truth or they didn’t want me to think that they’re not my parents which was never the case. Eventually, when I was 21, 22, I got my dad drunk and was like, ‘Dad, can you just tell me what went on? Why was I up for adoption?’”
She then explained that her birth parents had to give her up for adoption because they couldn’t afford her and wanted to give her a better life.
Snooki gushed, “That’s so amazing for them, that shows how much they loved me. But also I could never do that. I can’t even imagine how they felt giving me up but thank you for that.”
She jokingly added, “In the back of my head I’m always curious to meet my birth family. I always wonder if I never was adopted and I stayed with my birth parents would I still be a hot mess like this? Just in Spanish, probably. I feel like I was always meant to be this hot mess.”