Carrie Underwood is the mother of 3-year-old son Isaiah, and she and husband Mike Fisher recently announced they’re expecting their second child.
However, the “American Idol” champ admits she had pretty much given up on the idea of having another child after suffering three miscarriages in the span of two years.
“I’d kind of planned that 2017 was, you know, going to be the year that I work on new music, and I have a baby,” Underwood explains in a new interview with “CBS This Morning”. “We got pregnant early 2017, and didn’t work out.”
She told herself that pregnancy simply wasn’t meant to be. “And that was the thing, in the beginning, it was like, ‘OK, God, we know this is, just wasn’t Your timing. And that is all right. We will bounce back and figure our way through it.’”
But then she experienced a second miscarriage later that year, and then a third in 2018. “At that point, it was just kind of like, ‘OK, like, what’s the deal? What is all of this?’” says Underwood, 35.
“I had always been afraid to be angry,” she admits. “Because we are so blessed. And my son, Isaiah, is the sweetest thing. And he’s the best thing in the world. And I’m like, ‘If we can never have any other kids, that’s OK, because he’s amazing.’ And I have this amazing life. Like, really, what can I complain about? I can’t. I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No.”
Yet that didn’t stop her anger from emerging when she thought she might be having a fourth miscarriage. “I got mad,” she says.
Underwood recalls praying to God for some clarity. “Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can’t have a kid? Like, what is this? Shut the door. Like, do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid,” she says.
“And for the first time, I feel like I actually I told God how I felt,” she adds. “That was like a Saturday — and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm, another miscarriage. And they told me everything was great! He heard me.”