Lil Wayne is opening up about his attempted suicide as a child.
The rapper appeared with NFL player Odell Beckham Jr. for a joint interview with ESPN’s Josina Anderson, who brought up the revelation in the closing track from his new album Tha Carter V.
“I found my momma’s pistol where she always hide it / I cry, put it to my head and thought about it / Nobody was home to stop me, so I called my auntie / Hung up, then put the gun up to my heart and pondered,” he raps on the song “Let It All Work Out”.
“Too torn apart about it, I aim where my heart was pounding / I shot it, and I woke up with blood all around me / It’s mine, I didn’t die, but as I was dying / God came to my side and we talked about it / He sold me another life and he made a prophet,” the lyrics continue.
Anderson asked Wayne about his thought process in writing about the event in his song and whether he was influenced by the recent suicides of Anthony Bourdain and Kate Spade.
“That song has actually been recorded for probably over four years.”
“I felt that way when I thought the album was coming out,” Wayne continued, referring to the originally intended 2014 album release date. “I was ready to come out with it then. […] The thought process doing that verse is… What made me do it was just, [I] was ready to get it off my chest.”
In a recent interview with Billboard, Wayne revealed that he was 12 years old when he attempted killing himself but until recently referred to it as an accident.