Shawn Mendes often feels like he has to prove he’s straight, even though he knows there’s nothing wrong with being gay.
But the 20-year-old Canadian singer is now calling out his depiction in a candid new interview with Rolling Stone in which he opens up about his sexuality, as well as his past relationship with Hailey Baldwin.
“In the back of my heart, I feel like I need to go be seen with someone — like a girl — in public, to prove to people that I’m not gay,” Mendes admits. “Even though in my heart I know that it’s not a bad thing. There’s still a piece of me that thinks that. And I hate that side of me.”
Addressing the speculation surrounding his sexuality online, Mendes adds, “I thought, ‘You f**king guys are so lucky I’m not actually gay and terrified of coming out.’ That’s something that kills people. That’s how sensitive it is. Do you like the songs? Do you like me? Who cares if I’m gay?”
On Twitter, Mendes pushed back on how his quotes were portrayed in the article, suggesting that the writer focused on the negative.
As for his relationship with Baldwin, who recently got married to Justin Bieber, the singer reveals that they had been something more than friends.
“I don’t even wanna put a title on it. I think it was more of a zone of limbo,” Mendes says. “I texted Hailey [after her engagement], ‘Congratulations,’ and I really am happy for them. She’s still one of the f**king coolest people ever — she’s not just a beautiful person visually but she’s one of the most beautiful hearts I’ve ever met.”