Amanda Bynes is back and better than ever.
After taking a hiatus from the public eye, the actress, 32, is opening up about her past drug use, offending people on Twitter and returning to acting in Paper Magazine’s “Break The Internet” issue.
Sporting a plaid blazer and blue jeans, Bynes says her addiction issues started early: “I started smoking marijuana when I was 16. Even though everyone thought I was the ‘good girl,’ I did smoke marijuana from that point on… Later on it progressed to doing molly and ecstasy. [I tried] cocaine three times but I never got high from cocaine. I never liked it. It was never my drug of choice… I definitely abused Adderall.”
But it got worse when she filmed “Hall Pass” in 2011: “When I was doing ‘Hall Pass’, I remember being in the trailer and I used to chew the Adderall tablets because I thought they made me [more] high [that way]… [I remember] seeing my image on the screen and literally tripping out and thinking my arm looked so fat because it was in the foreground or whatever and I remember rushing off set and thinking, Oh my God, I look so bad.”
And that film made her take a step back from acting and Twitter.
And while she took a break from acting and attended FIDM (Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising) in New York City, she admits to taking Twitter to the next level.
“I’m really ashamed and embarrassed with the things I said. I can’t turn back time but if I could, I would. And I’m so sorry to whoever I hurt and whoever I lied about because it truly eats away at me. It makes me feel so horrible and sick to my stomach and sad. Everything I worked my whole life to achieve, I kind of ruined it all through Twitter… it’s definitely not Twitter’s fault — it’s my own fault.”
The chat also sees Bynes open up about playing a boy in the movie “She’s The Man” back in 2006. Her character Viola pretended to be her brother in the flick, and Bynes says the part left her in a deep depression.
She explains, “When the movie came out and I saw it… I didn’t like how I looked when I was a boy.”
But now, she’s looking at returning to the craft with “hope” and “excitement.”
Read more from Bynes here.