Selma Blair is opening up for the first time about her multiple sclerosis diagnosis, since revealing the news last October.
In an emotional interview with anchor Robin Roberts on “Good Morning America”, the 46-year-old actress, who made her first public appearance since announcing her MS diagnosis at this past Sunday’s Vanity Fair Oscar Party, reveals her thoughts on her initial MS diagnosis in August 2018.
“I cried. I had tears,” Blair says. “They weren’t tears of panic. They were tears of knowing I now had to give in to a body that had loss of control. And there was some relief in that ’cause ever since my son was born, I was in an MS flare-up and didn’t know and I was giving it everything to seem normal.”
Revealing that she was “not taken seriously by doctors” despite showing various symptoms, the “Legally Blonde” star admits that she turned to drinking to deal with feeling “ashamed.”
“I was self-medicating when [my son] wasn’t with me,” she says. “I was drinking. I was in pain. I wasn’t always drinking but there were times when I couldn’t take it and I was really struggling with how am I going to get by in life?”
Speaking with Roberts, Blair says that it was actually “Back to the Future” star Michael J. Fox who reached out to her to help.
“I said, ‘I don’t know who to tell, but I am dropping things. I am doing strange things.’ He got in touch with me and we began a conversation. So he really helped.”
Addressing her more difficult days, the actress, who shares seven-year-old son Arthur with her ex-boyfriend, stylist Jason Bleick, says, “I get in bed and I don’t move. You just have to. You can’t do it all. It’s fine to feel really crappy and say, ‘I got to.’ And my son gets it. And now I’ve learned not to feel guilty.”
When it comes to Blair’s current prognosis, she says that symptoms of the disease could get better with time and, within a year, the actress could have up to “90 per cent” of her abilities back.
“I want to see,” she says. “I want to see for other people and I want to see for me and see where I am. I was a little scared of talking and even my neurologist said, ‘No, this will bring a lot of awareness because no one has the energy to talk when they are in flare-up,’ but I do.”
In a separate interview with Vanity Fair, Blair says, “There’s a humility and a joy I have now, albeit a fatigued joy.”
“Her decision to speak out also brings awareness,” her doctor Saud Sadiq notes, “and increases research funding for the disease when people can see somebody affected in the way that she is.”