For a singer-songwriter, digging deep to reveal one’s deepest, most intimate emotions for a song can be cathartic. Performing that song in concert, over and over again, can be another story.
That’s the point being made by Ariana Grande, who admits that performing the deeply personal songs from her latest releases, Sweetener and thank u, next, “is hell.”
In a Twitter exchange documented by Us Weekly, the “No Tears Left to Cry” singer, 25, opened up about how singing some of her more personal songs is like reliving the trauma all over again.
According to Us Weekly, a fan tweeted to Grande, “Music is your therapy and I love seeing it heal you.”
“Making it is healing,” she replied (she later deleted all her tweets from this conversation). “Performing it,” she added, “is like reliving it all over again and it is hell.”
Proving that her fans are among the most empathetic out there, her Twitter followers quickly shared their support, with some even telling her they “wouldn’t be mad” if she canceled her tour.
Grande, however, promised she “won’t do that” because that would make her feel even worse. “I just am sharing,” she responded, continuing, “it’s hard and i’m trying and my soul is confused and tired and i love u.”
She added: “Having a routine is good for ptsd. been readin bout it. i would be sad without the shows too. imma be ok. might change the set list a lil.”