Sean “Diddy” Combs is opening up about the death of his ex-girlfriend Kim Porter and how he’s been coping with life as a single parent.
The music mogul speaks to Essence about how his life has been “turned upside down” since Porter’s passing six months ago and explains how her final words helped him in moving forward.
“Three days before she passed, she wasn’t feeling well,” Combs says. “She had the flu, and she sent the kids over to my house so they wouldn’t get sick. One night I was checking on her, and she was like, ‘Puffy, take care of my babies.’ She actually said that to me before she died.”
It was those words that kept coming back to the record producer in the days following Porter’s tragic death from pneumonia. “I jumped into mommy mode,” Combs explains. “I sent people in every direction to try to make sure the kids would not hear about it on social media or the news.”
Together, Combs and Porter shared three children, son Christian, 21, and 12-year-old twin daughters D’Lila Star and Jessie James. Combs also helped raise Porter’s son Quincy, 27, from a past relationship with singer Al B. Sure.
Combs tells Essence that he feels like Porter was preparing him for this day. “It was like some superhero s**t. I ain’t even gonna lie. On some level I knew she was training me for this. I knew that I had to be ready to do whatever I was supposed to do if something like this ever happened.
“There was screaming and crying when I heard the news, of course, but I had to ask myself, What would Kim do? I was scared, and I was crying out to God — and to her — and almost immediately Kim’s voice kicked in, and I could hear her saying, ‘Make sure you take care of my babies.'”
Now, the Grammy-winning rapper, who has two other children, Justin, 25, and Chance, 13, from previous relationships, is focusing on life as a single dad, and he says Porter’s voice is there guiding him through it all.
“I can hear her telling me to go and spend some time with the kids and make sure everybody’s all right,” he says. “I’m just a lot more present, and, most important, now my kids come before anything else in my life.”
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