For the first time ever, Melissa Rivers is talking publicly about the loss of her father over 30 years ago.

In a new podcast, “Life After Suicide with Dr. Jennifer Ashton”, the 51-year-old talks about her father Edgar Rosenberg, who took his own life in 1987.

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As she recalls, the suicide left Rivers angry, including at her late mother Joan.

“I was angry at my mom. I was angry at my dad. I was angry at the UPS worker,” explains Rivers in a preview of her interview, set to premiere May 1, the Daily Mail reports. “I used to call it like this free-floating sort of anger.”

Rosenberg’s suicide also made Rivers feel like an outcast in public.

“Oh my God you feel like you have a big giant stamp on you,” she recalls. “Nobody knows what to say, nobody knows how to address you, nobody knows what’s okay to bring up. You feel so alone.”

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Dr. Ashton, who herself lost her husband of 22 years to suicide, offers her own recovery experience.

“I had to learn quickly how to keep living,” she says, “for myself and my two children.”

The Canadian Association for Suicide PreventionDepression Hurts and Kids Help Phone 1-800-668-6868 all offer ways of getting help if you, or someone you know, may be suffering from mental health issues.

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