Lamar Odom has deep regrets when it comes to his failed relationship with Khloe Kardashian.
The former NBA star touched on his divorce in a candid interview with People. “I wish I could have been more of a man,” Odom expressed. He admitted he was unfaithful to Kardashian and hid his severe drug addiction from her: “It still bothers me to this day. But regret is something we have to learn to live with.”
Odom, 39, has a new memoir Darkness to Light. “For a while, being with her was bliss and I was the happiest I’ve ever been,” Odom writes in his book. “We were one of the most famous couples in Hollywood and we made more money together than we had individually.”
“I could not handle the lethal cocktail of the spotlight, addiction, a diminishing career and infidelity,” he continues. “Oh, did I mention the paranoia, anxiety, depression… I couldn’t keep my d**k in my pants or the coke out of my nose. Drug addicts are incredibly skilled at hiding their habit. I’d get defensive and Khloee would just drop it.”
“I am a sex addict,” he admits in his memoir. “There were too many strippers to count,” he continues, noting he has had sex with more than 2,000 women. “It wasn’t a big deal, but often I would pay them. I never thought less of them.”
The two celebrities married in September 2009 after one month of dating. In October 2015 he was hospitalized after being found unconscious at the Love Ranch, a legal brothel in Nevada. Odom and Kardashian finalized their divorce in 2016.
Odom’s memoir Darkness to Light is available May 28.