Gwyneth Paltrow is opening up about what it takes to practice self-love.
The Oscar-winning actress, 46, launched the first episode of Goop’s new podcast, “The Beauty Closet”, and chatted about feeling uncomfortable in her own skin.
“I’ve always felt so funny about my looks,” Paltrow admitted to co-hosts Jean Godfrey-June and Megan O’Neill. “I think that it’s very rare to think that you’re a beautiful person, and so, I feel like every other woman, like I don’t see that when I look in the mirror.”
And despite her looks on the outside, the “Iron Man” alum said she struggled with feeling good on the inside: “I think for me it’s more internally feeling…you know, as I go on in life and I feel more and more myself and less judgemental about myself, my values become clearer to me, I can be in integrity all the time, which was much harder when you’re a younger woman and you’re trying to please and juggling all this stuff.”
She added, “I have this other added bizarre layer, which is I’ve been considered to be this woman… beautiful woman.”
“Well, you know, that’s sort of how I’ve been considered, not by everyone, but it’s a weird thing to be… I don’t mean in a pejorative way objectified, but sort of like cast as something and put in a box,” Paltrow said. “Then I think when you come to age, if you have this broad identity as that, what does it mean to get wrinkles and get closer to menopause? And all these things, and it’s like, what happens to your identity as a woman if you’re not f**kable and beautiful?”
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But after digging deep, she’s finally gotten to the “I’d f**k me” place.
“I think you get to a point where it’s almost like your sort of pulchritude is waning in a way and your inner beauty is really coming out,” Paltrow explained. “And so, it’s this funny shift that’s happening, it’s like you feel so good, you know who you are, hopefully you value the relationships in your life and your work and your contribution to the world. When you’re in your 40s that’s the idea, but then you’re like, ‘Wow, I have crow’s feet, damn!'”
Listen to more from Paltrow here.