Nikki Bella says her split from John Cena still cuts deep.
The “Total Bellas” star was engaged to the WWE wrestler before they broke up in 2018, but even after moving on with her “Dancing With The Stars” partner Artem Chigvintsev, Bella says she still struggles with it.
“As far as how you get over a breakup, you really have to do the work on yourself,” she said on the latest episode of “The Bellas Podcast”. “You really, truly, have to love yourself and every day dedicate something to you that is making you better. You also have to let yourself cry. That’s one thing my life coach helped me a lot with, because I still, you guys, get days when I cry about my breakup.”
She continued, “But we were together a long time, we had an amazing relationship and an amazing bond and a lot of love for each other… but, every day when I need to cry, I let myself cry, because crying is healing.”
And she refuses to hold those emotions in.
“And so, when those tears come, I don’t try to hold them in, I find a quiet place and I cry,” Bella admits. “Also, on top of it, I meditate.”
Before getting into detail about what caused the split, Bella says she had to sign an NDA.
“John wants to keep things private, which is amazing, I respect him so much for that,” she revealed. “The one thing that I can tell you from my point of view and my emotions and my perspective… towards the end I started to become a miserable person. I was very, very unhappy.”
“For John and I, it was just… the timing was off,” Bella added. “I think what I realized is that I want someone… when I spend the rest of my life with someone in marriage, I wanna be with them every night. I want to spend holidays with them, I want to grow with them, I want to know that they really do wanna be a parent.”
Bella and Chigvintsev met during the 25th season of the hit competition series and have been together ever since, but kept their relationship private until earlier this year.