Bebe Rexha is channelling negativity into positivity.
The “No Broken Hearts” singer has overcome the odds at every stage of her career, but the road to stardom did not come easy. Rexha, who turned 30 on Friday, reflects on those bumps in the road for the October edition of Cosmopolitan U.K.
Rexha made headlines in February when she revealed designers told her she was “too big” to get a custom dress for the Grammys. An incensed Rexha took to Twitter and rallied support from fans and those in the industry.
“It broke my heart,” she tells the magazine. “I was so sad, so depressed. I felt like I was garbage. I thought to myself, This is bulls**t… I was mad, I wasn’t trying to get back at anyone, but I wasn’t standing for it anymore. I was in the studio and I just left, went into the kitchen, and made a video on my phone.”
Rexha used the situation to renew interest in body discrimination and put her own body positivity journey in overdrive.
“I wish I’d had someone to talk to when I was going through all of that,” she admits. “You need support. I want to create a safe environment for women to come together.”
Rexha candidly speaks on a number of uncomfortable encounters with men in the music industry. One encounter was particularly uncomfortable for her.
“There was one night. I was alone in the studio and a producer had a group of five or six guys with him,” she reflects.
“I had heard things about him from his past and I just couldn’t take it anymore,” she tells the publication. “I felt like I was going to get raped. I quietly called myself a taxi from the recording booth, which was enclosed, and I got the f**k out of there. It was the worst night ever.”
The two-time Grammy nominee also reflects on trying to break it in the industry.
“I remember when I saw Britney [Spears] make it big for the first time, she was 17,” Rexha says. “So when I turned 18 I was like, ‘That’s it, I didn’t make it.'”
“I felt the same when I hit 21, and throughout my 20s. At 27 I had a breakdown.”
Rexha got her start in the music industry as part of Fall Out Boy bassist Pete Wentz’s experimental Black Cards group. She signed to Warner Bros. Records in 2013, writing a number of songs, including “Like a Champion” for Selena Gomez and “The Monster” for Eminem and Rihanna.
Rexha also performed the hook on David Guetta and Nicki Minaj’s hit song “Hey Mama” but did not receive credit until months after its release. In 2015, Rexha co-wrote and was featured on G-Eazy’s “Me, Myself and I”, which propelled both artists into the stratosphere.
She finally released her debut studio album Expectations in 2018 and is currently working on her sophomore effort.