FKA twigs dropped her second studio album on Friday, and as part of her promotional efforts for the new LP, Magdalene, she sat down with Zane Lowe on his New Music Daily show for Apple Music’s Beats 1 to discuss her new music.
During the chat, she opened up about the personal nature of the songs on Magdalene, and how they relate to what she’s gone through in her own life.
“I feel grateful that I’m able to put my experiences and put my hardships into work,” she tells Lowe. “… I’m grateful for all the experiences I’ve had. I’m grateful that I had to face a lot of things alone.”
Given that the 31-year-old singer has been in some high-profile relationships recently — she broke up with “Twilight” star Robert Pattinson in 2017, and was reported to have briefly dated actor Shia LaBeouf earlier this year — she tells Lowe about the process of “unmeshing” from her exes.
“Unmeshing, like when you’re with somebody, your lives become very entwined with like your friends and family and your routine,” she explains. “And then the unmeshing is you’re then by yourself and then it’s finding your own morning routine, or your nighttime routine. Even something as simple as like, ‘Wow, now I can decorate the living room how I want it.'”
As a result, she adds, “I had to really find out who I, but I’ve always known who I am. I have always really known who I am, but it’s just kind of discovering like who I was in adult crisis was like a big thing. I mean, I remember even when I had my operation waking up and, like, my family had gone home, my friends had gone home and just kind of having no one to call, not because, like, nobody loves you or not because there is truly no one to call. But just because, why?”
She continues: “Say, like, if you’re in a relationship, something good happens and you have someone you can call and just say something silly or something bad happens, you can just call and just say something minor. And it doesn’t have to be like a big deal. You couldn’t just share, but then having that gone. So I remember waking up and it was just nobody. I didn’t want to, like, call my mom and stress her out or anything. She’d just come back. I didn’t want a thing to happen, like something’s wrong, but just like waking up and just being like, ‘Oh, this is just me.'”
However, she also insists that being “unmeshed” has its positives.
“I have a dog and we hang, and I feel like I’ve never known myself better,” she tells Lowe. “I’ve never felt younger. I feel like I have like a little child inside me that’s, like, alive.”