Bella Hadid opened up about her mental health battle and the pressures of being a runway model as she spoke at the Vogue Fashion Festival in Paris Friday.
Hadid said there were times when she’d “cry every single morning” just as her career really started to take off.
She explained, according to WWD: “For a while I just didn’t want to talk about it, and I’ve gone through a lot in the past few years with my health. I feel guilty for being able to live this incredible life, have the opportunities that I do, but somehow still be depressed. It doesn’t make sense.”
“I would cry every single morning, I would cry during my lunch breaks, I would cry before I slept. I was very emotionally unstable for a while when I was working 14-hour days for four months straight as an 18-year-old. I think I just wanted to breathe a little bit. And so it kind of put me in a spiral.”
Hadid, who has walked the Victoria’s Secret show a few times, also said the first time she actually felt comfortable modelling lingerie was during Rihanna’s Savage x Fenty show in September.
Hadid, who donned a bright yellow underwear set for the show, shared: “Rihanna’s amazing. For me, that was the first time on a runway that I felt really sexy. Because when I first did Fenty, I was doing other lingerie shows and I never felt powerful on a runway, like, in my underwear.”
“I like being another character. I think at this point I don’t necessarily love being myself sometimes. Sometimes on the runway you get either nervous or you forget how your legs move.”