It’s been quite a year for James Charles.

The 20-year-old beauty expert and YouTube sensation was on top of the world at the beginning of the year, only to hit a low after Tati Westbrook publicly cut ties with him and made heavy claims against him.

“I’m not mentally in a place where I want to be,” Charles tells PAPER Magazine in a new interview released on Wednesday. “What’s even harder to swallow is that it’s been six months since all the drama happened. I thought by this time I’d be completely good — back to normal, if you will — and that’s not the case.”

In May, Charles and Westbrook became embroiled in a war of words over the web after Westbrook accused him of going behind her back, taking her ideas and inappropriate behaviour. Westbrook also claimed that Charles was spreading false lies about her and would seduce straight men.

“What that statement implies is that gay men are all predatory, which is disgusting, not true and very dangerous to put out there,” Charles says of the accusations. “The whole situation was scary for the LGBTQ+ community and paints a really bad picture of gay men.”