Chris Martin says his time in boarding schools fostered homophobia and questions about his own sexuality.
The Coldplay frontman recently sat down with Rolling Stone to talk about his early life. Martin, 42, explained how his interactions in boarding school confused him and developed a degree of hatred.
“When I went to boarding school I walked a bit funny and I bounced a bit and I was also very homophobic because I was like, ‘If I’m gay, I’m completely f**ked for eternity’ and I was a kid discovering sexuality,” Martin said.
“‘Maybe I’m gay, maybe I’m this, maybe I’m that, I can’t be this’ so I was terrified… I was in a boarding school with a bunch of quite hardcore kids,” he continued. “They would very much say, ‘You’re definitely gay,’ in quite a full-on manner, quite aggressively telling me that and it was weird for me for a few years.”
The singer was confused about his sexuality but it did not matter. The homophobia at his boarding school meant being gay was not an option.
“I don’t know and even if I am, I can’t be because it’s wrong,” he said of his thinking at the time. “If I am, I can’t be, so that was creating a terrible turmoil.”
Fortunately, around age 15 he came to the sudden conclusion that it did not matter what his sexual orientation was.
“I don’t know what happened, I was like, ‘Yeah, so what?’ and then it all just stopped overnight. It was very interesting,” Martin shared. “Once I was like, ‘Yeah, so what if I’m gay.’”