YouTube star Nikkie De Jager, better known as NikkieTutorials, has come out as transgender.
De Jager opened up about her journey in an extremely personal video posted to her YouTube channel, letting the world in on a secret she held in for years.
“Filming this video scary, but it’s so liberating and freeing,” she began. “I’ve been wanting to share this side of myself to all of you for so long but I could never figure out the timing.”
De Jager, now 25, revealed she always felt like she was “born in the wrong body” and started identifying as a girl at age six. So at 14, De Jager started hormones and used growth stoppers to prevent her from becoming taller. And when she was 19, and while she was already making YouTube videos, De Jager fully transitioned.
“Yes I am transgender,” she said. “But at the end of the day I am me.”
“Dylan and I, we clicked. And he didn’t know. He knows now. Dylan knows about my past, but I wish I told him sooner,” De Jager said of her fiancé Dylan Drossaers. “Everything felt so magical, so good, that I was afraid to lose him if I were to tell my full story. At the point where I told him my full story, of course he was shocked, but that is a private matter that we’re dealing with and that I’m so proud of that we’re able to deal with.”
De Jager later explained that she wasn’t quite ready to go public with her story but was being blackmailed into doing so, “I am free, and today I get to be me.”