Billie Eilish hopes she can provide support to fans facing the same mental health struggles she has.
In a new interview featured in “The Gayle King Grammy Special” on Thursday night, the 18-year-old singer opens up about her own issues with depression and suicidal thoughts.
Revealing that she used to self-harm, Eilish said, “I don’t want to be too dark but I genuinely didn’t think I would make it to 17.
“I didn’t ever think I would be happy again, ever.”
When King asked, “Did you think that you would do something to yourself?” Eilish responded simply, “Yeah.”
The singer continued, “I remember there was a window right there. And I, God. I remember crying because I was thinking about how the way that I was gonna die was I was gonna do it.”
Asked whether ‘I wanna end me” from her song “Bury A Friend” was about herself, Eilish said, “It was. It also rhymed.”
She added, “I was so unhappy last year. I was so unhappy, and I was so joyless.”
Now, though, Eilish explained that she has been trying to reach out to fans going through similar ordeals and thoughts of suicide and self-harm.
“I just grab them by the shoulders and I’m like, ‘Please take care of yourself and be good to yourself and be nice to yourself … don’t take that extra step and hurt yourself further and then you can’t take it back.'”
If you or someone you know is in crisis and needs help, resources are available. In case of an emergency, please call 911 for immediate help.
The Canadian Association for Suicide Prevention, Depression Hurts and Kids Help Phone 1-800-668-6868 all offer ways of getting help if you, or someone you know, may be suffering from mental health issues.