Camila Cabello Opens Up About Being ‘Desperate For Relief’ From OCD

Camila Cabello is getting candid about her mental health struggles.

In an essay for WSJ Magazine, the 23-year-old singer opens up about dealing with obsessive compulsive disorder for Mental Health Month.

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Cabello talks about the ways her Instagram feed is not totally representative of her inner life.

“Here’s what there ​aren’t​ pictures of from the last year: me crying in the car talking to my mom about how much anxiety and how many symptoms of OCD I was experiencing,” she writes. “My mom and me in a hotel room reading books about OCD because I was desperate for relief. Me experiencing what felt like constant, unwavering, relentless anxiety that made day-to-day life painfully hard.”

She also talks about being too “embarrassed and ashamed” to tell anyone about her OCD.

“I didn’t want the people who thought I was strong and capable and confident — the people who most believed in me — to find out that I felt weak,” Cabello writes. “The little voice in my head was telling me that if I was honest about my mental health struggle and my internal battles (i.e. being human), people would think there was something wrong with me, or that I wasn’t strong, or that I couldn’t handle things.”

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Describing her OCD, Cabello says it took the form of “obsessive thoughts and compulsive behaviours,” adding that it made her “feel like my mind was playing a cruel trick on me,” she explains. It manifested physically too, giving her difficulty sleeping, constant headaches, and a persistent knot in her throat.”

Thankfully, Cabello has found ways to deal with her condition: “For a long time, anxiety felt like it was robbing me of my humour, my joy, my creativity, and my trust. But now anxiety and I are good friends. I listen to her, because I know she’s just trying to keep me safe, but I don’t give her too much attention. And I sure as hell don’t let her make any decisions.”

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