She Tried To Kill The Female Babysitter Who Molested Her As A Child
In the documentary, Pamela Anderson reveals she was repeatedly sexually abused by her teenage babysitter when she was a kid. “It was like three or four years of abuse,” Anderson said.
“She always told me not to tell my parents. I tried to protect my brother from her,” Anderson added.
“I tried to kill her — tried to stab her in the heart with a candy cane pen,” she revealed.
When that attempt failed, Anderson took another route. "I told her I wanted her to die, and she died in a car accident the next day,” Anderson revealed. “I thought I’d killed her with my magical mind and I couldn’t tell anybody. I was sure that I did it, that I’d wished her dead and she died. I lived with that the whole of my young life.”
She Was Sexually Assaulted By A 25-Year-Old Man When She Was Just 12
"I was 12, 13-years-old with my friend. She had a crush on a guy much older than us," Anderson recalled. "We went to a friend's condo. She went upstairs with the guy she had a crush on. I started to play backgammon with her friend downstairs while I waited for her. We played for a while until he said I looked like I needed a massage. He was 25, I was 12. He raped me. I felt like it was my fault. My mom was always crying about my dad. I couldn't bear to hurt her more. I didn't tell her or anyone."
She added: "I tried to forget it, but I felt like it was tattooed on my forehead. Like, I really had this image of 'I had sex' on my forehead when I didn't want anyone to know I had it. Those were kind of my first exposure to sexual experiences too, so I think a lot of confusion. What it made me was very, very shy. It made me super self-concsious."
She Felt Inadequate When She First Arrived At The Playboy Mansion
Playboy would have an immeasurable impact on Pamela Anderson's career. When she first met Hugh Hefner at the Playboy Mansion, however, she recalled feeling “average” when surrounded by all the other women. “I feel blessed and embarrassed at the same time, what am I doing here?" she recalled thinking at the time.
That feeling of inadequacy didn't last long; she went on to appear on the magazine's cover a record 15 times, more than any other woman.
She Initially Didn’t Want To Join 'Baywatch' — And The Time Tommy Lee Trashed Her Trailer Baywatch trailer When She Had To Kiss A Co-Star On Camera
The documentary revealed that casting directors had tried to cast Pamela Anderson 11 times, but she cancelled the session each time. The reason, Anderson admitted, was because her grasp of Los Angeles geography at the time was dodgy, and she thought she'd be much further away from home than she actually was.
"They always tried to get me to come and audition in Marina Del Rey, which sounded very exotic and far away. I was like that sounds really far I can't go. I just ignored it," Anderson said. She finally relented, was cast as lifeguard CJ Parker and the rest is TV history.
She also recalled one fraught moment from the set, when then-husband Tommy Lee showed up the set when she was supposed to kiss a co-star in a scene. "He came and trashed my trailer on the set. Put his fist through a cabinet," she recalled.
Sylvester Stallone’s Offer To Make Her His 'No. 1 Girl'
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In the documentary, Anderson recalled receiving a very specific offer from Sylvester Stallone. "I remember talking to Sylvester Stallone one time, and he offered me a condo and a Porsche to be his No. 1 girl," she said.
Stallone, through his lawyer, denied it. "The statement from Pamela Anderson attributed to my client is false and fabricated," reads a statement from the "Rocky" star's attorney. "Mr. Stallone confirms that he never made any portion of that statement."
Scott Baio’s Dad Was A Jerk To Her
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Pamela Anderson dated Scott Baio for three years, even becoming briefly engaged to the "Joannie Loves Chachi" star before they split.
According to Anderson, Baio's father didn't like her. "He was really mad because I would drive Scott's Mercedes and he said I wasn't worth a Mercedes yet. That I had to drive something like a Hyundai... He was not very nice to me," she said.
"I might buy a Hyundai off Scott's dad for $5,000," she joked.
Why The Release Of Her Sex Tape ‘Felt Like A Rape’
When her private sex tapes with Tommy Lee were stolen and then released on the Internet, Anderson felt violated. “It felt like a rape," she said in the documentary, noting that the experience reminded her of past trauma.
"Not to bring up something really heavy from my childhood, but when I was attacked by this guy, I thought everybody would know," she explained. "When the tape was stolen, it felt like that."
She Felt Like ‘A Caricature’ After The Sex Tape Went Viral
After the release of the sex tape, Anderson recalled the "super humiliating" feeling of becoming a punchline o late-night talk shows. She also felt that it had "solidified the cartoon image, too."
In fact, she blames the sex tape for wrecking the image she'd constructed, and, by extension, her career. "You become a caricature," she said. "I think that was the deterioration of whatever image I had."
She’s Never Really Gotten Over Tommy Lee
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Tommy Lee and Pamela Anderson had a very public, very tumultuous relationship. In "Pamela, A Love Story", she confessed that she's never really gotten over their breakup.
"I never got over not being able to make it work with the father of my kids," she shared. "Even though I thought I could recreate a family, or fall in love with someone else, it's just not me. So I think that's probably why I keep failing in all my relationships. . . I think I'd rather be alone than not be with the father of my kids."
She Finds Fascination With Her Body To Be ‘Disturbing’
According to Anderson, when she began candidly answering media questions about her breasts, it led to a downhill spiral.
"I don't know why my boobs, people were so interested, they weren't that newsworthy," Anderson said. "But I was just so naive. And I think, at the time, it was pretty nervy to say the truth . . . It was disturbing 'cause it was like, 'Oh my God. Really? Is this what we're talking about again?'"